We have been back for three weeks, maybe. Our trip was fine, and yes, we are still together. I would love to do another cross the states trip.. only with a bigger car. And maybe we could drive around Kansas.. nothing wrong with Kansas just nothing to look at from the interstate and it takes a lOOOOOOOOng time to drive through. I think me being home this summer is getting on Dell's nerves we have been agreeing to disagree fighting more and one just fight culminated with me throwing a hot dog at him... it was cooked.
   What I am realizing is that we have way different sparring style. I am a screamer and temper tantrum thrower extraordinaire, and he is Mr. Quite and ignorer of my said tantrums and screaming
(which makes me do both more and with gusto.. yeah me). He is more direct and to the point and I definitely take it the wrong way all the time.. That would be the sensitive Pisces in me.
We had a talk ... like a real one .. no yelling or ignoring this time. And we talked about the ..wait for it... FUTURE! He wants to have kids ( YIKES) and move to another place state, and he wants me to get my life in order and think about the future, our future.  And he is right. I have just been getting by and doing what I need to do now instead of thinking about whats the next step and the step after that. Not an excuse, just the truth I have never been with someone who I wanted to have a future with. So I have alot to think about. I want a future with D that is my goal.